Lord,

You have been gentle with me through thick and thin.

You have extended me grace upon grace.

You have blessed me beyond measure.

My boundary lines have fallen in pleasant places.

I love to meditate upon Your sovereignty, Your goodness and Your grace.

Creator

Sustainer

Redeemer

Almighty

Sovereign

Worthy of my worship

Yet, another vies for my attention and affection. She calls to me demanding my allegiance – and she is oh so convincing – in the moment. And moment by moment I follow her almost without thought, quieting her demands, cravings, and lusts by giving in to her to give her, her own way.

My self-affection has pushed you from Your rightful place in my heart and life – I have chosen to satisfy myself. Despite my wandering heart – my hardened heart, yet You continue to woo me.

I have taken for granted Your love and sacrifice and I assume Your blood-bought forgiveness.

Hear my cry, O Lord. I lift my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord Who made heaven and earth.[i]

I see You there – Your head bowed, saddened because You know the joy I forego.  You know the truth about me – the deepest, darkest truths about me. You willingly went to the cross becoming my sin to exhaust the wrath of Father which I deserve.

There You are – Innocent Lamb of God – Slain….

In my mind, I know the truth. Yet my heart resists, knowing that to fully embrace the Truth means I must say good-bye to the other one I love. I want that. I want to be free of her embrace.  I want to delight in and be fulfilled by Your embrace.

Show me Your way oh Lord and teach me Your paths. Guide me in Your truth and teach me for You are God my Savior and my hope is in You all day long.[ii]

Father, sanctify me in Your truth. Your word is truth.[iii]  Sanctify me completely that my whole body, soul and spirit would be kept blameless,[iv] a radiant reflection of Your love, Your grace, Your mercy, indeed of Your glory that others may see and magnify You.

Love,

Your daughter

[i] Ps 121:1-2

[ii] Psalm 25:4-5

[iii] John 17:17

[iv] 2 Thessalonians 5:23