I’ve been doing a lot of searching lately. I’ve been trying to figure out just what it is I am supposed to be doing at this season of life. It’s been hard to figure out what to do when what I want is not happening. And as I prayed about what I wanted the Lord said (as I know when He is talking to me), “You need to be content with the life I am giving you.” Ouch. It’s a struggle to have desires in your heart and mind and be content that, for now, those things are not what God has for you. I don’t believe my desires are wrong. What is wrong is to be ungrateful for what God has given me. It is wrong to take God’s goodness and gifts and say it isn’t enough. That’s the struggle of my heart. I also know that it is a waste of time to think about what should be and not pay attention to what is. I need to remember that God is no respecter of time. Whatever the future holds, He is there. It is a challenge to look forward and keep it about what God has for me, not what I want for myself. I have to constantly remind myself that it is not my will but His. Recently, I heard this song on the radio and it couldn’t have been a more perfect reminder.
I know you’re good, But this don’t feel good right now, And I know you think
Of things I could never think about, It’s hard to count it all joy, Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense, Of all your promises, Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God, And I am not, So
Thy will be done, Thy will be done, Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is, Thy will be done, Thy will be done
I know you see me, I know you hear me, Lord, Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store, I know you hear me, I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me, Good news you have in store. Thy Will- Hillary Scott
Kathy Withers is on staff at America’s Keswick and serves as Director of Partner Care. Kathy has been married to her husband Dave for 30 years. They have two adult children. Kathy is active in her local Church and teaches a Bible Study for women. Her passion is to encourage women to deepen their walk with Jesus Christ by finding and living out the truths of God’s Word.