I wrestle with life. I am sure you do, too. Eventually, and it’s not always sooner than later, I surrender the wrestling match and remember God is sovereign in all areas of my life. Knowing and trusting that God is in control when my world spins out of control is a great comfort and brings stability to my heart when nothing else does. While having a conversation about God’s sovereignty I was struck when my friend said, “It is not God’s sovereignty that we struggle with. We know and believe He is in control. The real challenge is to know and trust that God is good in the midst of it all.” I realized that my wrestling was not about who was in control or trusting that God was really in control. My wrestling goes a step further. My real heart issue is trusting and knowing that God is good . . . all the time. Think about it. God is in control but some hard things have come my way. Heartbreaking things. Things I don’t understand. Things I’d rather not be faced with. But is God good? It is easy to when the preacher gets up and says “God is good all the time,” and then respond “All the time God is good.” Do you and I really know that? Do you and I really believe that? I believe but Lord, help my unbelief!!
Blessings,
Kathy
Kathy’s on staff at America’s Keswick in the Development Department. Kathy has been married to her husband Dave for 28 years. They have two adult children. Kathy is active in her local Church and has taught Sunday school and Bible studies for women. Her passion is to encourage women to deepen their walk with Jesus Christ by finding and living out the truths of God’s Word.
Victory Call 
Kathy, your honesty and willingness to express your vulnerability and doubts in the midst of your strong faith is inspiring. Thank you for sharing from your heart and I continue to pray for you and your family as you deal with your grief. No words can comfort more than the Word of God especially in Psalms as I know that you know! Hang on to those truths as others keep you lifted up during this time of grief and healing! Psalm 31:9 says “Be gracious to me, Lord, because I am in distress; my eyes are worn out from angry sorrow—
my whole being as well.” Then this Psalm ends with: verse 14-16 “But I trust in You, Lord; I say, “You are my God.” 15 The course of my life is in Your power; deliver me from the power of my enemies and from my persecutors.
16 Show Your favor to Your servant; save me by Your faithful love.